Pin Hole

December 5, 2012

A pin hole;
Small, round, dark.
A prick;
Suddenly there.
Then it grows.
Out, and out, and out
Creating a want
A desire
A primitive need
To close it.
To fill it.
To make it gone.
But no matter what
Is put in that hole,
It only tears the edges
Expanding it;
Until one day,
It reaches the point
Of consumption.

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Want

November 9, 2012

I love you so Much
I ache to feel you against
My craving body

Alcoholism

May 24, 2011

I need it.
I need it.
I really
Need it.
All I’ve ever wanted
Was it.
I crave it.
I fiend for it.
I cannot
Have it.
No matter
How simple
It seems.
I can never.
Take it.
Again.

Final Embrace

January 18, 2011

That hand
Sliding seamlessly across my chest
Begging to stay; while forcefully letting go
That hug;
Shockingly surreal
Making my body feel
Longing.
Desperate and calm
Anger and sorrow
Happy and displeased
As if saying “I’ll get on my knees”
But showing strength;
More power than me
A future you see
The rose glasses shattered
But not all fades to black.
You can still attack
for you now see clear
Not a hint of fear
Even though it is done
You just won
With your arms quick unwrap
And that hand
Oh that hand
Slipping, and sliding
Away.

Locked Away In My Mind

August 29, 2010

I am a prisoner of my mind
Locked inside is where you’ll find
My sanity is trapped forever more
All because I didn’t know the score.

Sealed away in this self-made hell
I kiss the external world fair-well
My body now numb from the drugs
I will never take back the hugs

My body is in lock down now
I will manage to live somehow
My mind is free as a bird
Yet I will not utter a single word

On this celestial plane my mind waits
Pondering about those it hates
I am trapped in this cell so dark
With you I could light a spark

In this shadowed light I glow
But no one but you will ever know.
I hide behind this smile of lies
Really, this world I do despise.